First of all let me say that I LOVE Dr. Seuss. For those of you that have never read his stories or quotes you are missing out because he was one wise man. Now onto my post for today.........
I drive to work one hour each way every day. Not to mention all of the traveling I do from office to office within a day most of the time. The long drive can get on my nerves especially in Lexington traffic. However, I find I do my best thinking and mind cleansing in my car, by myself, listening to my music.
I am sure most of you have figured out by now that I am a deep thinker. However, it is not often that my daydreaming and deep thoughts suddenly all come together and make sense and make me feel so much better. Like all of the sudden if you were looking at me you would see a little light bulb light up beside my head like in the cartoons. Well that happened this morning.
I returned to work today January 2nd after 5 days off. I did not get a thing accomplished that I had planned over my little vacation, but rather had more quality time with my family of which trumps everything. The house, closets, laundry, etc. can wait and if there is one thing I have learned in my 36 years is that the "mess" is not going anywhere. Naturally I did not look forward to returning to work having to give up lounging in my pj's all day, sleeping in late, no makeup, you know all the good stuff that comes with vacations. But it was time to return. As I was driving to work I was going over many things in my busy mind. I have had a lot on my mind lately about a certain situation that just seems to keep getting worse and worse. I am a blunt person. I am sure I can come across too blunt at times. At the same time I am the type of person that does not like to hurt any ones feelings. I do not like for people to be mad at me and if I have done something to you that would hurt your feelings I want to know so that hopefully I can right the wrong. There are a handful of people that have hurt me deeply in one way or another and I have no space for them or the bad feelings I get from them in my life. I forgive them, as God would want me to, but I don't forget the grief they have caused me. I don't let my guard down. I am the type of person that will take and take and forgive and forgive and eventually enough is enough. Unfortunately this situation is one of those types of situations.
I had really put everything in the back of my mind and decided that I needed to just wash my hands of it all and move on. Unfortunately that is not the same of the other side which once again made all of those bad feelings come back and brought forth the "me" that I do not like to be. So this morning I am driving and the beautiful sun was shining in which felt nice. All of a sudden it came to me........I AM WHO I AM!!! Why am I wasting my energy that can be given to so much more and wasting it on a petty ridiculous situation? I cannot change what someone thinks of me, nor can I make someone like me or agree with me. God made us all different and unique in our own way. As long as I have a good feeling in my heart of my values and beliefs than why should I change for anyone? Why should I allow someone to take up so much of my time for nothing? I tell my children all the time to make their own paths. Be their own person. If people choose to like them and want to be their friend and be a part of their life than great! But if they choose not to be that is OK too. I do not want them to change their morals, values, and beliefs for anyone. As long as they know they are good people in their heart and are good with God than they are where they need to be in life.
If I can preach this to them then why can't I do the same myself? I am 36 for crying out loud. Why should I care if someone likes me or not? I do not mean for this to sound cold. Quite the opposite. I just think that as human beings we crave acceptance. From the time we are born we want to fit in. We want to be loved, but the harsh truth is we will not always fit in and not everyone will love us or even like us no matter what we do. And you know what, that is OK!! The only sad part to that is THEY are missing out on a pretty good person and friend. Be who you are, stand up for what you believe in, walk tall, remain humble, always remember and stay true to your roots, be kind, smile, laugh, LAUGH OFTEN, and enjoy life my friends. It's the only one we get, better not take advantage of it!
June
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