As I sit here today writing this post I, same as many others have all kinds of emotions rushing through me. This past Thursday and Friday I filled in for a OBGYN within our organization. My plan was to blog about being a part of some peoples most joyous times of their life. I am still going to do that but with a somewhat different purpose.
This OBGYN office is located in an adjoining building as my OBGYN office. I have to go to these buildings several times a week as it is part of my job. Each time I walk across the catwalk and into these buildings same as I did several times 11 and 7 years ago during the pregnancies of my babies. Seems like yesterday. The buildings look and smell the same. I had horrible pregnancies and felt just awful but I would go back and relive them in a minute. The overwhelming excitement you feel in anticipation of the birth of your baby. You just cannot wait till you can hear your babies heartbeat or possibly get a glimpse of them through ultrasound.
Alli
Parker and I in the hospital.
At the same time as I was filling in on Friday 12/14/12 for this doctor and being with women that were bringing new life into this world, a evil being was taking several innocent children in Connecticut out of this world. It is so hard to even wrap my mind around this horrific tragedy that has unfolded. One 20 year old man forever changed the lives of 20 children's families and 6 adults families. He single handily took these innocent lives in a school where children go to learn and socially grow. Where teachers and administrators are working diligently to give these children an education and safe learning environment. Not to mention taking his own mothers life and then turning the gun on himself. It has since been a fog and everyone you meet seems to be in shock. Everyone with the same question, WHY??? How can anyone do this? What happened to this person that could cause him to do something so unimaginable? When I decided to do a blog I did it with the intent of being able to chronicle different events in my families lives so that memories would not be lost. Unfortunately this is not a memory that any of us want to have, but it is indeed one that will forever change our lives in some way. What is this world coming to?
One thing I know for sure is I am sitting here right now with my little7 year old daughters head in my lap while she is sleeping and listening to my son giggling in his room while he is playing a game. None of us know why this tragedy unfolded but I do know that I am so very blessed. We have no guarantee of tomorrow. All we have is now! Unfortunately it can take something so awful to make you stop and realize how truly lucky you are. My thoughts and prayers are with all of those families that will not be able to have these moments with their loved ones again. May God give them comfort and peace. We all need to remind ourselves regularly to slow down and take nothing for granted for in a second it can all be taken away.
Alli's little feet (above) and little hands.
June
"Children are precious gifts sent from heaven."
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